it is not enough by ~emilygolightly

it is not enough just to

miss you. i have to learn

how to walk again; how to

live without meat and

kissing, how to sleep

shaped like a balled up

fist. it is not enough

just to miss you. i have

to adopt twins in

Africa, name them Lost

and Weird, forget to

feed them. i have to

go to every pet store

in America and rescue

all the seahorses. i have

to tattoo D A R K B I R D

inside my lip and stand

in children's playgrounds

like a broken arm, creaking. it

is not enough just to miss

you. it has to hurt. i

have to write poems

that last forever, interpret

dreams about buildings

burning down, flies who

leave their partners for

sad New York waitresses. i

have to work on my

posture. shave my head, wear

white dresses. i have to

be a chaffinch when i curse

into my fingers. it is not

enough to just miss you. i

have to be a crazy

crocus-woman; my lovely

hand curled close around

your heart, a bud sealed

tightly, tightly, tightly...