— Avondale Kendja

Lust, 

fear, 

desperation, 

and loneliness 

can concoct 

the most potent 

of illusions.

—Bob Marley

“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. 

You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”

the Words

The scariest part is letting go

‘Cause love is a ghost you can’t control

I promise you the truth can’t hurt us now

So let the words slip out of your mouth

Happy New Year!

"Sometimes your biggest battle is to believe in yourself."
I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain until I learned that it’s necessary for growth.
I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death until I realized that it’s not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny, until I realized that I had the power to change my life.
I feared hate until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days
I feared ridicule until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future until I realized that life just kept getting better.
I feared the past until I realized that it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light until I learned that the truth would give me strength.
I feared change, until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo
a metamorphosis before it could fly.
learn to believe in yourself.

…..you really make people care about you and your character.

“…..you really make people care about you and your character. And not just because you have a pretty face …… so when Supernatural ends, don’t think about it as a conclusion but a stepping stone that will lead you towards a bright future because you are Oscar material.”

An intelligent woman

An intelligent woman is like an inconvenient truth. 

Hard to accept, hard to forget.

— Lauren Oliver, Delirium

“I guess that’s just part of loving people:

 You have to give things up. Sometimes you

 even have to give them up.”

your mind

“Fill your mind with truth, your heart with love, 

your life with service.”

— U.G. Krishnamurti

“Nature is busy creating absolutely unique individuals, whereas culture has invented a single mold to which all must conform. It is grotesque.”

is a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit.

— Miguel Ruiz

“Go inside and listen to your body, because your body will never lie to you. Your mind will play tricks, but the way you feel in your heart, in your guts, is the truth.”

— John Greenleaf Whittier

“Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these, ‘It might have been.”

THIS

Boys Will Be Boys (And Why That Is The Stupidest Thing You Could Ever Say To A Little Girl)

“when she was 7, a boy pushed her on the playground
she fell headfirst into the dirt and came up with a mouthful of gravel and lines of blood chasing each other down her legs
when she told her teacher what happened, she laughed and said ‘boys will be boys honey don’t let it bother you
he probably just thinks you’re cute’
but the thing is,
when you tell a little girl who has rocks in her teeth and scabs on her knees that hurt and attention are the same
you teach her that boys show their affection through aggression
and she grows into a young woman who constantly mistakes the two
because no one ever taught her the difference
‘boys will be boys’
turns into
‘that’s how he shows his love’
and bruises start to feel like the imprint of lips
she goes to school with a busted mouth in high school and says she was hit with a basketball instead of his fist
the one adult she tells scolds her
‘you know he loses his temper easily
why the hell did you have to provoke him?’
so she shrinks
folds into herself, flinches every time a man raises his voice
by the time she’s 16 she’s learned her job well
be quiet, be soft, be easy
don’t give him a reason
but for all her efforts, he still finds one
‘boys will be boys’ rings in her head
‘boys will be boys
he doesn’t mean it
he can’t help it’
she’s 7 years old on the playground again
with a mouth full of rocks and blood that tastes like copper love
because boys will be boys baby don’t you know
that’s just how he shows he cares
she’s 18 now and they’re drunk
in the split second it takes for her words to enter his ears they’re ruined
like a glass heirloom being dropped between the hands of generations
she meant them to open his arms but they curl his fists and suddenly his hands are on her and her head hits the wall and all of the goddamn words in the world couldn’t save them in this moment
she touches the bruise the next day
boys will be boys
aggression, affection, violence, love
how does she separate them when she learned so early that they’re inextricably bound, tangled in a constant tug-of-war
she draws tally marks on her walls ratios of kisses to bruises
one entire side of her bedroom turns purple, one entire side of her body
boys will be boys will be boys will be boys
when she’s 20, a boy touches her hips and she jumps
he asks her who the hell taught her to be scared like that and she wants to laugh
doesn’t he know that boys will be boys?
it took her 13 years to unlearn that lesson from the playground
so I guess what I’m trying to say is
i will talk until my voice is hoarse so that my little sister understands that aggression and affection are two entirely separate things
baby they exist in difference universes
my niece can’t even speak yet but I think I’ll start with her now
don’t ever accept the excuse that boys will be boys
don’t ever let him put his hands on you like that
if you see hate blazing in his eyes don’t you ever confuse it with love
baby love won’t hurt when it comes
you won’t have to hide it under long sleeves during the summer
and
the only reason he should ever reach out his hand
is to hold yours”
— Fortesa Latifi - Boys Will Be Boys (And Why That Is The Stupidest Thing You Could Ever Say To A Little Girl)

the realest thing I’ve ever read.

You’re the one that I love

You’re the one that I love

And I’m saying goodbye.

"This is the story of how I died. But don’t worry, this is actually a fun story and the truth is it isn’t even mine. This is the story of a girl named Rapunzel, and it starts with the sun."

"This is the story of how I died. But don’t worry, this is actually a fun story and the truth is it isn’t even mine. This is the story of a girl named Rapunzel, and it starts with the sun."

~Wei Wu Wei

— Honoré de Balza

“for a woman knows the face of the man 

she loves like a sailor knows the open sea”

— Aesop

“No one believes a liar even when he tells the truth”

Personal comment: I feel this quote on a rather important note. You see i've come to the conclusion that there is someone i know who is ripping off my ideas. Sure, copying is the highest form of flattery but i cannot stand liars and the day i find out i'm right is the day i'll walk out forever and NEVER look back. It'll be the day you'll become totally invisible.