Now Never Ends~: 01/26/11

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

act differently around different people

I act differently around different people. I'm not "fake", I just have my own comfort zone. That's why I can only be completely myself when I'm with people I'm comfortable with.

faking your feelings for me.

It's better that we're not talking anymore, not pretending everything is okay. Because for once I feel like you aren't faking your feelings for me.

hurts the most

I guess in the end, the person that loved the most hurts the most.

I know that will never happen and I wish it did...

The only reason you would want to talk to me is because you are lonely or you want something. You don’t really care about me; if you did you would talk to me just to see how my day was or how I'm doing. I know that will never happen and I wish it did...

I'm not perfect, I never tried to be. I've made mistakes. I've taken the easy way out. I've lied to my friends. I've hidden the truth so many times from so many people. I've hurt people, and I've even done it on purpose. I've left people behind. I've spread rumours. I've said things that I didn't mean. I'm no better than anyone, anywhere. I'm human. I have faults, and I'm not afraid to admit that. I want to change, but I won't. Because that's what we do. That's what we've always done. We list our faults like a grocery list, and we move on, expecting everything to somehow change itself. It never will. I will never change. I will never be perfect. I will always make mistakes. I'll, more often than not, take the easy way out. I will lie, hide the truth, hurt people, leave people behind, spread rumours, and say things I don't mean for the rest of my life.