Morning Sun over Mountains

been practically listening to Backstreet boys the whole day, completely exhausted b/c of all the posting and because I can't get him out of my mind. It would be great if I could, just once, kick his a** because of the way he formulated himself last Sunday... idiot.

but here is the last quote of the day: 

Keeping a smile on your face when inside 

you feel like dying, for the sake of 

supporting others... is Strength

funfact

There are 6,804,800,000 people in the world but sometimes all you need is 1.

no talk

The reason why I don't talk to you any more is because I keep telling myself that If you wanted to speak to me, you would.

be the girl he’s scared to lose.

I wanna be the girl he’s scared to lose. The one where he can’t walk away from knowing she’s mad at him. The one who can’t fall asleep without her voice being the last one he hears, the one he can’t live without.

Meaning of "Move on"

I've never understood the reasoning for someone to "move on" from a relationship. It's not like you are really going to "move on", you are just trying to tell your heart to stop thinking about that person every second of every minute of everyday until it finally becomes a routine and you don't notice it anymore. That is, until you see that person again, with someone who isn't you, and then you have to remind yourself again.

not loving me

I don't hate you for not loving me anymore, but I hate myself for still loving you

Pain

The best thing about loving and being hurt is that you get to know what true love really is. For as gold is tested in fire, and so will love be perfected in pain.

Story: Sarah (not for sensitive readers)

My name is Sarah

I am but three,

My eyes are swollen

I cannot see,

I must be stupid

I must be bad,

What else could have made

My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better

I wish I weren't ugly

They maybe mommy

Would still want to hug me.

I can't speak at all

I can't do a wrong

Or else I'm locked up

All the day long.

When I'm awake I'm all alone

The house is dark

My folks aren't home

When my mommy does come

I'll try and be nice,

So maybe I'll get just

One whipping tonight.

Don't make a sound!

I just heard a car

My daddy is back

From Charlie's Bar.

I heard him curse

My name he calls

I press myself

Against the wall

I try and hide

From his evil eyes

I'm so afraid now

I'm starting to cry

He finds me weeping

He shouts ugly words,

He says it's my fault

That he suffers at work.

He slaps me and hits me

And yells at me more,

I finally get free

And I run for the door.

He's already locked it

And I start to bawl,

He takes me and throws me

Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor

With my bones nearly broken,

And my daddy continues

With more bad words spoken.

''I'm sorry!'', I scream

But its much too late

His face has been twisted

Into unimaginable hate

The hurt and the pain

Again and again

Oh please God, have mercy!

Oh please let it end!

And finally he stops

And heads for the door,

While I lay motionless

Sprawled on the floor

My name is Sarah

And I am but three,

Tonight my daddy

Murdered me.

If it’s meant to be it’s up to me. --Terri Gulick Messages

Cooking is like love. It should be entered into with abandon or not at all.--Harriet Van Horne

Story: I lvoe you gone wrong

 She's sitting there against the wall.
blood and spatter cover her all.
she's still alive!
but slowly she will die.
she looks down to her hands,
what a bloody mess!
her mom would kill her for the stains she's left.
but she won't have to,
she's already done it.
a car pulls in...who is it?
mom, dad, sister?
no, it's the guy who caused her stress.
he runs to check her out,
he begins yelling and starts to shout!
he says "I'm sorry, but i love you!!"
she grabs him close and whispers,
"sorry too" and "i love you"....
she releases his body and falls to the floor,
where her body lays lifeless and still.
he screams "no!" and grabs the gun.
he shoots!!
two lifeless lovers, now dead.
all because of three little words not being said.

I'm happy for you

When a girl says I’m happy for you

most of the time she doesn’t really mean it,

What she's trying to say is….

What was wrong with me?

Why did you choose her?