Now tell me, friend, doesn't this lead to a confusion?

This is actually a poem written by me... i just want him to find the spark in his life

because I get so sad when people say that "shit happens" and how bad

life is. Or that they don't even care about life. I mean I love life. I love being high on life.

i love to ramble and i do cry. Maybe not in public but i do cry when people say hurtful things

or do hurtful things. 2011 I realised that tears aren't a sign of weakness

they are a sign of being alive. 

Truth is i love you so much that I don't know what 

to do with you. Fate decided that we would meet and 

get to know each other. What's even more effed up is

the fact that we have so many things in common

yet we are so different from each other that we can

possibly be. 

Now tell me, friend, doesn't this lead to a confusion? 

I liked you, told you, dealt with it... talked with you, slowly began to 

love you, began creating distance and you came back, 

you even called. i don't think you realise how much 

just that means to me. 

Yet you are unfair, and a coward. I don't know if you're scared

you never let me in that much and i get it, you like to keep

people at an arms length. Don't worry, i did too. 

2012 is around the corner and I gave you a real hug because 

even though i get mad at you and kill myself by going 

days without talking with you I still can't let you go. 

And you know what? Some times my 11:11 wishes are

about you, that you one day will understand

 that the way you are is sometimes really terrifying

and hurtful. I'm not saying this to be rude or mean but to 

give you a head up that whatever you've been through is holding you back

Dude, sometimes I even dream about you. 

But from the bottom of my heart I wish you like all my other friends

Eternal happiness and a perspective that life 

really ain't that bad. 

I really love you,  and I don't think I'll ever stop. 

As a friend you will always have a special place in my heart and a part of it

just remember that everything you say and do and don't say

might just scar my heart for life, so please take good care of it

Don't worry about the girlfriend stuff, dude you ain't my type ;)